Wednesday, March 5, 2008

My Precious

My 28 month old son went to school for the first time today. For sentimental reasons, I put a new dress for him that his grand mother had sent. My hubby took half day off from work just to see how he is adapting to being away from his mom and dad. He was fine, and did not cry when we left him, He was there for three hours. I could not wait to pick him up from school. I rushed into his room thinking he would come running to me and give me a tight hug, but all he did was give me a smile that said 'Hi Amma'. I was so surprised because I was expecting him to miss me!!! Since I am a stay at home mom, I have never left him with anybody for more than an hour. I feel he is so mature for his age, and am sure he is going to be a wonderful person.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

"Mom, He is staring at me"

I saw an ad in SUN TV recently that got me to think about the incidents that happened in my childhood days and how it affects me still....there was this AD for Arogya Milk, where the former actress nadhiya and her 'daughter' are sitting in the dinner table, and the daughter tells her that a guy keeps staring at her when she takes the bus to school everyday and her mom says 'stare back at him'....now it's not that the Ad has any relevance to the advertised milk, but it's people like that guy who keep affecting each and every girl. Some girls give a 'don't care' attitude (I really appreciate them because it shows that they are bold and are ready to face the many challenges that await them), and some girls take it to their heart (who, like me want to give a 'don't care' attitude but it still keeps running in the back of their minds).
My mom who wanted to give her daughter all that she did not have in her childhood days, bought me short skirts, pants, t-shirts, long ear-rings etc....When I was 13, I wore one of those skirts to my school Annual day function and my classmate, a boy commented that I had long legs....I did not know if it was a compliment, all I wanted was 'no comments'. After that day, I never wore any skirts!!! When I think about it now, I blame myself and not the guy, why did I have to be so conscious about what people think about what I wear as long as I am comfortable in it. I did not wear sari till 22 because one guy in my apartment complex commented that I did not have the 'right curves'. But when I think about it now, my husband still says I look gorgeous in a sari and wants me to wear it everyday.
My commute to college was by Bus, so I never thought about wearing jeans and shirt at all, I wore a loose fitting salwar with my dupatta all covered and pinned up, Oh....why did I not wear fashionable clothes during my college days....I wear all these here in California, because there are not many people who stare at you and comment about the way I dress, at least I have not come across anybody, save my husband, who has the time to look at me and give their comments.
By God's Grace, if I have a second kid, and if it's a girl, I am going to get her all the fashionable stuff like my mom got for me, give her the confidence to face the world and make sure she doesn't crib (like me) over things that she wanted but did not dare to venture.